OMG, I am freaking hooked...

... on Long Vacation. I've been watching, re-watching and watching again. GOSH. It started off hilarious and funny, I think there was a slight lull in episode 4 or so, got back on track and ended up wonderfully.

GOOOOOOOOSH! I only recently began to watch Japanese Dramas and just saw this 1996 classic. And even though the clothing is outdated, the drama itself isn't. I'll be back with more later because right now, I have to try to catch my breath.

So I pledged to do something writing-related everyday...

Well, if surfing the net counts then yeah, I succeeded.

I am still updating my two stories weekly but I haven't done much editing.

I think I got scared because Femi's Diary is so much work.

Bleh.

I'll try to edit again tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

I am still thinking about nanowrimo. I came up with a YA novel called "Today." But shouldn't I at least work on editing my completed drafts and finishing my current stories before starting something new? :D

Yay!

This person has now uploaded Losing You by Keyshia Cole featuring Anthony Hamilton. I prefer Anthony's part. Lol... I listen to the song from the middle.



Okay, no more Keyshia Cole in my blog :D

I'm not normally a Keyshia Cole fan but...

... her album "Just Like You" has been on heavy rotation for the last few days. Other than "I Remember" which I posted earlier, these are some of the other songs I have on constant repeat. This is definitely one of my favorite albums of 2007.

Fallin Out


Heaven Sent


Work It Out


Just Like You is also nice.

Possible writing projects for 2008

Poking around Absolute Write has really inspired me to take my writing seriously. I have far too many pieces lying around doing nothing. If I write so much, why not see if it can take me somewhere? I've been dragging my feet for too long.

So the plan is to do something writing-related everyday till the end of the year. This includes working on my two current Works In Project and editing my four finished pieces. I won't write anything new this year.

Projects I'm toying with for next year:

I'm the woman of the house. Or maybe it would be I'm the woMAN of the house or something like that. Basically, it'll be a Young Adult humorous story about a girl who's suddenly saddled with taking care of the home when her parents leave unexpectedly. Romance, light drama, humor. Obviously not a particularly original storyline but I hope to make it a fun read. Set in Lagos. EDIT: Okay, I need help. I only just thought of this storyline today and I've already started plotting it in my head. Things like NEPA... lol

Ogbanje. Wiki definitions for Ogbanje or Abiku. This will be a serious piece and the story I have in mind will sweep three novels. Lol. Do I have the energy for this? If I do write this, it will be last thing I work on.

Untitled. Romance/Humor/Cultural story. It'll be college-campus set and the heroine would be a girl who appears to love every culture but hers and the hero will be an American-born guy who's all into his parents' culture. I've been thinking about this storyline for about a year so I guess I might as well write it. Set in Yankee.

Edit Consequences and Honeymoon. Edit Femi 2 and WFF 2 if they aren't done yet.

Start sending queries and what not.

I've scrapped the idea of completing "Mission: Make Him Mine." Not that many people read my stuff normally but practically no one read that and maybe it's too gimmicky for me.

Awesomest of awesomest...

I'm totally loving this song by Keyshia Cole.

I Remember

Novel lengths.

I just went to Harlequin's website just to poke around. I think I'm still too chicken to send anything but we'll see. LOL

But anyway, so I've been stressing about the length of my work and feeling that they aren't long enough. I just randomly click on stories from Project Gutenberg and other e-books and do word counts because I want to get an idea of how long a full length novel should be.

Of course, I'm generally disheartened because most often, the stories are over 100K words and some are like 300K+ words. Now, that's a joke if I've ever heard one. I can't imagine writing so many words.

Anyway, most of my O.C. multi-chapter fanfics were about 30-35K words which makes them novellas. The Sam Soon story is about 40K but the 4 'novels' I've completed have been 54-83K words. WFF will probably get about 3-4K more words when I edit, the two Femi's Diary stories will probably get 5-10K words after they've been edited. This will still leave my range about 58-83K words in length.

Consequences is currently at 73K words but will probably get 15-25K more words by the time I'm done. Honeymoon is at 20K and will probably end up at the 60-70K mark.

What's the point if this post? I've been stressing about the lack of length and I think I've actually dragged Consequences quite a bit just for this reason. Only to get to the site and see that their preferences are 50-75K in general. Oh well... not that I'm sending anything to them but it's good to see that shorter novels are also desirable. I guess this means that instead of stressing about length, I should just write the story and it'll be as long as the story deserves to be instead of needlessly dragging it.

I think Consequences has two chapters that I want to expunge but it's only because I waited so long till I got to them. I could probably eliminate 10K words without really changing the story. I am quite dissatisfied with that story.

Lol... is this accurate?

Although I don't tell 'jokes.'

You Should Be a Joke Writer

You're totally hilarious, and you can find the humor in any situation. Whether you're spouting off zingers, comebacks, or jokes about life... You usually can keep a crowd laughing, and you have plenty of material. You have the makings of a great comedian - or comedic writer.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Random

Somehow, I remembered this song from 1994. It's by Tina Arena who's an Australian singer. Back in the days, I just loved pretending I could hit the high notes.

Chains.

I feel uneasy...

... like something is off. I've also been having some odd dreams. I sincerely hope it's nothing.

I'm back writing again...

... updated a story on Saturday and should update the other tomorrow.

I cut my stupid finger on a Diet Coke can today.

What else? I love how my 100th post is complete crap. YIPPIE!

In respect to writing, my goals for the rest of the year:
Finish Consequences
Finish Honeymoon
Edit Femi's Diary (parts 1 & 2)
Edit Wrong Foot First (parts 1 & 2)
I think these are all doable.

Starting October 1st I am going to do something writing-related everyday.

Plan for 2008:
Start sending stuff out and brace myself for rejection.

On the writing front... (again)

All has been well for like the last few days. I'm just lazy and have been procrastinating for a while now. I should write something tomorrow (fingers crossed).

I am absolutely and totally in love with Nodame Cantabile

Nodame Cantabile is a Japanese drama based on a similarly titled manga. From what I understand, the drama only spans the first 9 volumes of the manga so I suppose there's a lot more story left. Apparently, there are 18 volumes and it's yet to be completed.

The drama is set in a music academy where the title character, Noda Megumi, is a 3rd year student and her love interest and the love of my life, Chiaki Shinichi is a 4th year student.

So why do I love this drama so much? It's freaking adorable. Like the other dramas based on mangas I've seen (It Started With A Kiss, Hana Kimi), the male lead is very straightlaced while the female is quite psycho. In many respects, I found this drama to be quite similar to ISWAK although they tell entirely different stories.

Chiaki is a genius pianist who follows the rules but not his heart. He's got the technique down and is quite a brilliant player but doesn't add much 'life' to it. Even though he's talented in both the piano and the violin, his dream is to be a conductor. This character is played by Tamaki Hiroshi and I must stay that he makes my heart flutter. I ended up watching another movie of his (Heavenly Forest) because I just needed more and even though he was cute in that, it was nothing like he was in Nodame Cantabile. I think it was a combination of his haircut, lighting and just the character he played. Yum.



Technically, he isn't as good looking as say, Wu Chun or Won Bin. Plus I think he looks at least 5 years older than his actual age of 27, but there's something so damn HOT and sexy about him. Plus his lips are just to die for.


Nodame is also a genius pianist but she lacks organization. She plays her piano with feeling but no technique in the sense that she never follows the sheet music but instead, lets her emotions rule. So in the end, she plays very sloppily. Anyone listening to her can tell that she's extremely talented but lacks discipline. In addition, she isn't ambitious and even though she attends a music academy, dreams of becoming a kindergarten teacher. I found her character quite sweet and not as annoying as I would have expected. She wears her heart on her sleeve and makes her feelings known like most of these characters normally do but it was quite endearing in her case.

So the story is pretty much about how these two different characters meet, interact and change each other for the better. Yeah, typical but it works.

I remember trying to watch Devil Beside You but I found it so animated that I got turned off. This drama is also very animated but for some reason, all the exaggerations really worked here.

I don't know why but I think a lot of it had to do with the actors and how much they appeared to enjoy playing these over the top characters. For example, the lead female character in My Girl was technically less over the top than Nodame was, yet, she appeared less natural to me. It might have a lot to do with the fact that the characters in My Girl were regular people unlike the all around craziness in Nodame.

In addition, even though Chiaki was the most normal of the main characters, he was also quite crazy. In shows like Hana Kimi or even in a story like David Copperfield, the male protagonist is pretty much boring while all the surrounding crazy characters make the story alive. In this drama, Chiaki also brought a lot of life to the storyline. The actor, Tamaki Hiroshi, as I already mentioned was beyond gorgeous on screen but in addition to this, the anime features like the way he twitched his cheek when something was awry, the way his eyes rolled back and he started to shake whenever he remembered his near-plane crash from childhood and even the way he tilted his head and 'fainted' when something nuts happened, cracked me up endlessly. And boy, did I mention he was so cute? From their NGs, they seemed to really enjoy their roles. I really loved how the entire crew would burst into a chorus of "aye" whenever an actor messed up.

Other characters in the drama cracked me up. Stresemann who was supposedly German but obviously played by a Japanese actor was beyond hilarious. I don't even know how the other actors managed to keep a straight face around him. His accent and manner of speech were beyond hilarious and his dialogues were virtually priceless. Even though he was such a creepy, dirty old man, I found his character the most memorable. I just loved his NGs:

Ryutaro was a character I grew to love. He started off as the stereotypical bleach blonde rocker dude uninterested in classical music but turned out to be one of the most responsible and caring characters in the entire drama. It was cliche in the sense that he eventually grew to respect classical music but his storyline was very well done. His was the character I would love to be friends with in real life.

Masumi, the gay guy with an afro and a freakishly weird moustache was also a sight for sore eyes. Other than his 70s clothing and platforms, he was so hilarious in his quest for Chiaki's love. One of my favorite scenes was when Chiaki walked into Nodame's apartment while Ryutaro and Masumi were there. This was early in the series when Nodame and Masumi agreed to a duel for Chiaki's love (lol) and when he (Chiaki) walked in, Ryutaro informed him of their fight. Chiaki said, "I can never be attracted to a woman like Nodame (whose face had been badly painted by her opponent)." Then he pointed at Masumi and said, "And... and, isn't this one a man?" Masumi's reaction to that comment was killer.

I thoroughly enjoyed the music (even though I have no ear for it) and orchestra (created by Stresemann featuring all the misfit underachievers at the academy) and the storylines about friendship were great. If I could change anything, I would add a lot more romance between Chiaki and Nodame. Even though their hug was touching, I would have loved to see more romance than this:



In addition, even though it was quite obvious that Ryutaro was going to hook up with fellow violinist, Kiyora, their storyline wasn't very well developed. It went from sexual tension to him saying he loved her to them waking up in bed together. Yes, there were other scenes in between but it would have been nice to see some real development between them.

There will be a two-hour sequel airing in January 08 and even though I doubt Ryutaro/Kiyora will appear, I hope it focuses on Chiaki and Nodame's romance.

All in all, I loved Nodame Cantabile :) I love this so much that I seriously considered writing a fic sequel like I did for MNIKSS but since this is a manga, I guess there already is a continuation to the story. But hey, I might still do it.

People often ask me why I enjoy Asian Dramas so much and Nodame Cantabile is a very good example why: they can be so delightful.

In my quest to rediscover my love for writing...

... I've been reading through posts at http://www.absolutewrite.com/forums/.

I signed up in July but never really checked it out and even though the site is really not pretty, there appears to be a wealth of information on it.

Maybe this will do the trick. *fingers crossed.*

True Love by Tuface

Nice song... too bad about the video. Don't know why he insists on his crappy videos.

On my current hate-hate relationship with writing...

... for starters, this happened quite a bit while writing Femi's Diary. I think at one point I didn't update for like 6 or more weeks after my previously weekly updates. So I guess it's nothing major or even new. But I think the difference is that back then, the issue was that I wasn't really in the mood to write. Now, I think I kinda detest writing. Why?

1)It's tedious.
2)Right now, there's no pay off in any way, shape or form.
3)I could spend my time doing more productive things.
4)My ability/skills/creativity/whatever are average at best. I honestly can't tell if my writing is good or not. If I go by the content of feedback I receive, it's not bad. If I go by the amount of feedback I get, it's awful. I honestly don't think my writing is as bad as the amount of feedback I receive suggests so I guess I'll say I'm a little less than average? Personally, from reading my work, since I'm so close to it, I really can't be objective about it.
5)Whatever.

Maybe if I somehow found this rewarding, it would be different. But now, it just isn't. And the more I write, the more I hate it... and I think the worse I become. I feel like I need to just stop.

Bleh.

Since I'm obsessed...

... and not going to bed yet, some of my British faves from the current decade.

Sophie Ellis-Bextor - Murder on the dance floor.

S Club 7 - Two in a Million. Is it shameful to admit to formerly being a faithful viewer of their T.V show on ABC Family? :(

Blue - If You Come Back. So, okay, I was totally crushing on the Duncan guy but that has nothing to do with my appreciation of their music... even if they totally destroyed Next's Too Close. But since Karma is a bitch, Bollywood got them back with their One Love remix... okay, I'm lying. The Bollywood version of One Love for the movie Rakht wasn't bad. I actually like it.

Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One


Craig David - Rendezvous. Okay, I don't want to talk about it but I was a total Craig David fangirl in the early 00s.

So... from my last post...

... I kinda went from Bobby Valentino to Babyface to Faith Evans. I suddenly got into a Faith Evans mood and started listening to some of her stuff from her first album. That got me into thinking about Shola Ama who kinda looks like her. That in turn made me think of British bands I enjoyed in the 90s and now it looks like I'm going to spend the last hour of my Sunday night watching dailymotion videos. I can't post all but I'll post some... all of which are some of my favorite British songs from the 90s.

Shola Ama - You Might Need Somebody. This is a remake of a Randy Crawford song. The initial reason I (and a bunch of other people) gave Shola Ama the time of day was because her name sounds Nigerian. For starters, Shola is a Nigerian (Yoruba) name and Ama could easily be a Nigerian name. So we heard of her and had to support, as per Naija... turns out that Shola Ama isn't her real name. Nonetheless, it's a good rendition of the song.

Take That - Back For Good

Eternal - Angel of Mine (yep, they sang it before Monica)

Everything But The Girl - Missing (gosh, I loved this song)

Gabrielle - Dreams

All Saints - Never Ever

Spice Girls - 2 Become 1 (shhh... don't tell anyone. Besides, it's not a fav or anything... just a song I know. And yeah, I know all the words but that's because they are so easy to learn!)

Oasis - Wonderwall. Now, how did this become a fave? I don't normally listen to this kind of music (whatever it might be) but some 60's coverband did a remake of it and I thought it was hilarious. And in the end, I somehow ended up liking the original.

Prodigy - Firestarter. The song is nuts... how couldn't I like it? Besides, it's way better than "Smack my b*tch up."

MN8 - random song. Couldn't stand them but my girls loved them. Bleh.

I'm tired.

The definition of good love...

... according to Bobby Valentino. These are some choice lyrics from Soon As I Get Home off the Special Occasion album.

I'll buy your clothes
I'll cook your dinner too
Yeah, soon as I get home from work

I'll pay your rent
Your faithful lover
Oh baby, soon as I get home, soon as I get home from work

Your the kind of woman that needs a man with lots of cash
With a stack of major credit cards and with me, you don't have to ask


Girl I'll treat you right and I'll never lie
For all that it's worth
I'll give good love

Hmm... he'll buy my clothes, cook my meals, pay my bills, give me loads of money AND screw me right? He'll even be faithful, give me tender loving care, not flirt blah blah blah. Hmm... and what do I have to do in return? Just be with him. Something doesn't seem right. Yeah, I know... HE'S A BIG FAT LIAR!


Here's the song on youtube.


Hmm... apparently, it's a cover of a Babyface song. Here's his version.


My favorite Soon As I Get Home is by Faith Evans. I really loved chubby Faith. Seems her talent disappeared with her weight.

I keep flip-flopping...

Now I feel like I can't bring myself to write. Maybe I should just leave an announcement for my readers?

Hilarious news of the day...

I just listened to some old Toni Braxton and I miss her awesomeness!

What happened to her? Best voice, passionate, great music and all that? Why did she start going downhill after the Secrets album?

Give you my heart (Boomerang soundtrack). I must say that there was a time I loved the movie Boomerang. I used to be such an Eddie Murphy fan... well, my entire family. :D



Love shoulda brought you home (also Boomerang soundtrack). I loved when Halle said, "Love shoulda brought your ass home last night." Of course, this was when I was younger and 'ass' was still a swear word.

Another Sad Love Song (on of my favorite Karaoke songs)

Seven Whole Days

You Mean The World To Me I just love the lyrics to this song.

Breathe Again. Wouldn't it be awesome to run around a maze, playing hide and seek with a smoking hot guy? Hmm.... sweet dreams to me...

I'm feeling okay about writing again...

...Phew! I think I'm actually able to write right now but I've decide to hold off till Saturday. I'll try to write two chapters of Consequences and one of Honeymoon over the long weekend. Saturday will be two weeks since I updated Consequences so I'm sure my readers will be wondering what's up since I normally update frequently. But I don't feel like bumping my thread so I'm not making any announcements. I guess I'll just add an apology to the update on Saturday.

I guess by Saturday I'll have a fresh mind and clear head. I still don't love my stories or characters but I can tolerate them long enough to finish the soompi stories. Then no more writing for a while... although I'm thinking of finishing the Mission story. We'll see.

Out of boredom, I went through my old entries and apparently, this has happened before. LOL... I guess it's just a matter of losing my love for writing for a little while. But all's well that ends well, aye?

I've sent over some short stories to be added to an anthology that's getting published (a friend hooked me up). I'm lazy - I should have edited them but since a professional will be doing that, I decided to just send as is. I'm so bad! But anyhoo, I'll see how this goes.

But how can one tell if their story is good? During the writing process, I have absolutely no idea and in all honesty, I think it sucks but years later, when I read a story I no longer feel any connection to (and have forgotten), I generally have a more objective view of it. For example, during my cut and paste, I read some chapters of Femi's Diary and it's pretty funny. hehehe... I can't believe some of the stuff I wrote. For example, the character, Femi, attended a concert and this is one of the comments she made afterwards:

Beyonce is a ho. Camel toe. Enough said.

lol... and the level of swearing is really high. Geez. But damn, that shit needs to be edited. Too many typos and it's quite dialogue-heavy (mainly phone convos).

I have lost the desire to write

I hate my characters.
I hate my plots.
I hate my writing style.
I hate my stories.
I hate the process of writing.
I hate everything I've ever written.
I have half a mind to delete every single thing I've ever written and just call it a day.
I have decided to just take a break and not think about it.
I hope this goes away soon.

Drama watching...

Subs for episodes 14 & 15 of Coffee Prince came out last night. I've seen episode 14 and found it so much better than the previous one. I think it had a lot to do with grandma's disapproval so at least there was some angst. And it was quite romantic.

Now, what cracked me the HELL up was the guy's so called dream job. I know he supposedly had a thing for toys so I thought the job was toy-related. It certainly didn't help that the offer letter from New York, FL looked like a copy and paste job from a Monster.com ad. But the funniest thing I've heard all day was that the position he was moving to America for was Senior Blog Designer. Okay, but seriously, WTF?!?!? I laughed for like 5 minutes nonstop for that. His parents were pushing him to return to America to be a blog designer? And how much do people make at that job anyway? Isn't that something anyone with html skills can do? That's his dream job? Or were the subs wrong?

Other than that, it was a vast improvement from episode 13.

I'm also watching Rude Woman starring my hot guy of the moment, Lee Ki Woo. Okay, this guy is freaking gorgeous. I can eat him up for breakfast, lunch and dinner. The guy is like 6'3 which is just awesome and his little lisp is so freaking cute. Gosh! I'm enjoying the drama because it's lighthearted and cute but Ki Woo is the butter icing on the yummy carrot cake. Mmmm. I'm slightly psycho so I've not been watching the episodes in sequence but it's still very cute.


I've been watching Someday on AZN and it's supposed to be an intelligent show and although the treatment is quite nice, it's still the same old love rectangle thing except I'm not rooting for anyone. I really wouldn't mind the main girl ending up alone. For one, the rejected guy is so clingy and annoying, trying to force himself on her but the other guy is pissing me off with all his suicidal tendencies. But I'll keep watching.

Fiction Downloads

For now, this is the only one available for download. I've taken all others off.

Finding A Bride (MNIKSS fanfic)


New rule as of October 16, 2010.
If you want a pdf of WFF, leave a comment. Thanks.

Yellow Handkerchief

I first discovered Korean Dramas through WYBE in Philadelphia. They air a lot of international programming and it's how I really got introduced to Bollywood (even though I'd seen some back in Naija but it was never my thing) and Korean daily dramas.

The first one I saw was One Million Roses. The dramawiki info is wrong as there were about 170+ episodes. The next I saw was So, this is love. Followed by My Precious Child and then Yellow Handkerchief.

What WYBE did was air two dramas at the same time - a rerun during the day and one airing in Korea at midnight. Since I was still a newbie, all the daytime ones were new to me.

Anyway, so during the broadcasts of MPC and Yellow Handkerchief, I got a great job offer here, so I had to relocate. Frankly speaking, not being able to watch YH put a little dent in my joy about my new job. I think it's fair to say that even though I didn't get to watch YH in its entirety, it's the most awesome show I've ever seen. (My favorite mini-series is MNIKSS and so far, nothing has been able to beat it. Although many viewers feel that Coffee Prince raised the bar, I completely disagree. I can probably name at least 10 dramas that I've enjoyed more.)

Yellow Handkerchief is the usual kdrama story about love, rich vs poor etc etc. Unlike in miniseries where there's really one main couple, the daily dramas generally have a lot of couples. The main story was about a girl who'd been in a relationship with a guy for about 9 years. During that time, they both struggled financially and got engaged. The bastard guy meets some heiress and decides to leave his long time girlfriend only to discover that she's pregnant. He tries to make her get an abortion but she tells him to fuck off. In the end, he does marry the rich girl and the story revolves around all their relationships.

I believe this show was where Han Ga In met her husband. Han Ga In plays the rich girl's younger half sister (who hates her) and her husband plays the jilted woman's younger brother. They meet one day (I think he hits her with his motorbike) and after colluding to destroy her sister's life, fall in love but can't be together because of their siblings' drama. I did root for their characters to get together but mainly because the girl stalking him was so damn annoying.

The grandmother from CP and Dal Ja's Spring played the jilted woman's suitor's grandma and even though she was a loving woman, she sure as hell took the whole parental disapproval to the max. Her issue was that she didn't want her grandson to marry a single mother.

Why the trip down memory lane? Well, there are two reasons:
1) I just read some info that it's possible to purchase this series on DVD for $162. There are 169 half-hour episodes. Should I? Or should I not?
2) It's Saturday morning and back in Philly, this was when I watched the week's worth of kdrama episodes I'd taped. And in the middle of it, I'd check to see if the Bollywood movie airing at 11am was any good and if it was, would pause my tape to watch it, then get back to my kdramas. I do miss that.

It's quite a shame that we don't have a similar station here. Why didn't I move to NY/NJ/IL/TX/HI/CA etc etc?

Anyhoo, I found the first three episodes on youtube so I guess I can watch a bit.

I finally saw episode 13 of Coffee Prince...

... and it was incredibly boring. UGH!

Weird...

For some reason, the later episodes of Coffee Prince are reminding me so much of the later chapters of Wrong Foot First and With One Foot In. Lol... I've been reading those chapters a lot in the past few days and it's almost as if I didn't write them myself... weird.

I think I'm slowly losing my mind.

I'm such an agbaya...

... (i.e immature)

I love this song from High School Musical 2. I didn't like either of the movies but I like this song.

Thou shalt write a chapter today...

Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today
Thou shalt write a chapter today

If I write (okay, copy and paste) this enough times, will it come true?

Is it just me or is it a really bad year for Bollywood?

Hmm...

I've seen a few films this year and in general, there haven't been many to go crazy about. In fact, there's no 2007 release I can honestly say was great. Some were nice like Just Married, Honeymoon Travels and even Salaam-E-Ishq but in general, IMO, it's been a shitty year for movies. I am not even looking forward to any movies at this point. 2006 was so much better.

But in the spirit of Bollywood, how about a bollyspam?

Kabhi Neem Neem from Yuva. Yuva is a nice film but overrated, IMO. I hated the Abhi-Rani couple because it was violent but I believe I'm in the minority. I did like their song, though. I just love the 'duet' that began around the 2:03 mark.

Tinka Tinka from Karam. I've tried to watch this movie a million times but I usually get bored halfway through. I love the song, though.

Na Tum Jano Na Hum from Kaho Na Pyaar Hai. LOL... I found the first half really difficult to get through (it took me 3 months) but I loved the second half of this movie. How so melodramatic. Hahaha... if you think too hard (or even a little), you'll hate this movie. You just have to leave your disbelief at home.

Taal Se Taal from Taal. It's an average movie but the songs are great.

And of course, Ishq Bina.

Kasam Ki Kasam from Main Prem Ki Diwani Hoon. The movie has been universally panned and I never plan to watch it but I love the song. In fact, seeing this video made me watch another movie with the Hrithik and Kareena pairing (because I couldn't get a hold of this one) called Yaadien and that was just plain awful. But yeah, the song is so sweet.



Lal Dupatta from Muhjse Shaadi Karogi. Gosh, I love all the songs from this movie but the movie itself is just not good. It's one of those overdone comedies and every time I try to watch it, I just end up only watching the songs.




Yenna Solla Pogirai from Kandukondain Kandukondain. I think I just love the picturization. It's the Tamil movie version (kollywood and not bollywood) of Sense and Sensibility. The book is my least favorite of Austen's work and I really lost interest in this movie even though quite a few people like it. But the songs from the movie rock, sha.

Soona Man Ka Aangan from Parineeta. The movie turned out to be nicer than I'd expected. The same predictable stuff but nice cinematography and acting.

Maar Dala from Devdas (2002). If the movie had come out a lot earlier, I would have said that the word overrated was probably created just to describe it. Seriously. What a piece of CRAP. I hated this movie with a passion and I am not too fond of Shah Rukh Khan either. But I like Madhuri and this song.

Saajan Saajan from Dil Ka Rishta. This movie sucks. Plain and simple. I couldn't watch it past halfway and I have a high tolerance for Bollywood B.S. But I like this song - it's fun.

In the spirit of the last two songs, here is Tujhe Yaad Na Meri Aayee from Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. Unlike most of the movies mentioned in this post, I love this film. It's the same ol' bestfriends-become-lovers story but who cares? I live for that stuff. And first watched it when I still liked Shah Rukh Khan.



Saajan Tumse Pyar from Maine Pyaar Kyun Kiya. Another not-so-good comedy. It was a hit but I'm still yet to finish it. And it's been over a year. But I like this song.

Fanfic and feedback

I just got a review for a story I wrote over 3 years ago and for some reason, I am so tickled.

The review was positive although the rewiewer did also provide some constructive criticsm. I guess I am tickled because, of course, she was correct but it was one of my earliest works when I was still trying to figure out how fanfiction worked so I wrote it like it was original fiction. The great thing about fanfiction is you don't have to establish backgrounds and relationships and the lazy part of me really misses that.

2004 was very productive for me in terms of writing. That was the year I discovered fanfiction and pretty much the same year I abandoned it. Not because I got sick of writing, but because I got sick of the show The O.C. and had no interest in writing fanfiction about the characters.

That got me thinking about the impact fanfiction has had on my writing and I must say that a large percentage of what I learned about writing was through fanfiction. Not just the experience of writing a story but also the discussions I had with other fanfic writers on TWoP. Gosh, I really miss being part of the fandom. On a side not, whenever I see TWoP, my mind reads it as PWP. Gosh, I'm so dirty minded.

It's always funny when I get a review for one of those stories because even though it was only three years ago, it feels much longer and it's funny to realize that there are people still reading that stuff. And how do they manage to do so considering all my stories are based on the first season and so much has happened since then? But it might be related to the fact that I wrote about non-canon relationships often starring minor characters in the show.

Which brings me to my My Name Is Kim Sam Soon fanfic that was completed in July 2006. It was simply written out of my love for the show and to give it a more complete ending. At the time, I didn't realize that k-fanfics were mainly about singers (RPF)and when I couldn't find a KSS fanfic to read, I wrote one. I am almost certain I've blogged about this before.

Anyhoo, I do wish there were more kdrama fanfics but most dramas do have endings that can't be stretched much further.

I wish I knew where I was going with this post but I guess it's time to go home, aye?

On the writing front...

... I must say I'm quite pleased with the direction in which my story is going. But gosh, writing can be so tedious. I wish there was an easier way... I should at least be writing a first draft of the next chapter but I'm so not in the mood. I guess I'll just write a more detailed outline.

I googled "Love Triangle" and this is what I got. I wanted a different image, though. One where the girl was the main attraction and not one where she was biting off her competition's foot.



This is one is even less romantic...



lol... go, Samantha :D

"Dear God, I hope I'm not stuck with this one."

HAHAHAHAHA


I love this song called Foundations. Yes, I am late but I only just discovered it. It's by a British singer called Kate Nash. And it's about the ups and downs of relationships.

1st Shop of Coffee Prince

I finally got in on the Coffee Prince action. Around episodes 4 and 5, I got bored AND the story is very predictable but it's also endearing and well done. I've seen up to episode 10 so far. The final kiss in episode 10 is also very gay as the guy is tonguing someone he thinks is a man (even though she's a girl) so it's interesting to see him succumb to his feelings for another man ignoring the implications in respect to his sexuality. Also, the part at the end of episode 8 that went like this:

You're gay, right? Well, I'm not so stop seducing me.

was also touching.

I find the girl annoying and extremely selfish for never revealing her true gender to him as there were ample opportunities but since it's a drama, he obviously has to find out from someone else. But seriously, you'd rather the man you loved think he's gay than to risk losing him by telling him you're a WOMAN?!?!? In what world does that make any damn sense? And after he tells you that he loves you and wants to be with you, you STILL don't tell him? So what happens when it's time to have sex? Would it be a 'ta-da' moment?

And Han Kyul himself, did he honestly think this through? Because he loved Eun Chan, did he plan to start having gay sex, something that we are supposed to believe doesn't feel natural to him? Or he didn't think that far? Tonguing a guy is one thing; having sex with him is another. And the fact that he was tonguing Eun Chan showed that he had sexual feelings for him.

But it's a contrived storyline anyway so I guess we are supposed to ignore that. I personally don't have any real problems with cross dressing storylines as I was thoroughly entertained by She's the Man.

Loads of chemistry and I'm enjoying it. It's definitely not the best drama I've ever seen, not even for the year (I prefer Queen of the Game, Taiwanese drama My Lucky Star and some others), but it's nice. While I love character-driven movies, generally, for dramas, I need a bit more plot. This drama is almost all character-driven and there are a few side stories I am not that interested in for example, his parentage and her sister's and mother's romantic lives. I am interested in Sun Ki's side story since as of yet, we know so little about it.

Another thing that stops me from outright loving it is that I feel that it's a cop-out gay story. I often wish they'd just go all the way and not have the guy turn out to be a girl so that it can be all nice and dandy. If you want to be real, take it all the way. Of course, there are all sorts of repercussions that'll come from this so I understand why one might be reluctant to create such a drama.

In stories like this and Twelfth Night (well, I have only seen the movie starring Ben Kingsley), I feel that the men have gay tendencies. No matter how some people might try to explain about pheromones and what not, I still find them to be gay. In She's The Man or Hana Kimi, it was different because in the former, even though he liked Viola when she was pretending to be Sebastian, he was never confused nor did he have any sexual feelings towards her in that state (unlike in Twelfth Night) and in Hana Kimi, he knew she was a girl from the get go. But with Coffee Prince, after seeing Han Kyul tongue Eun Chan so passionately, for the rest of the episodes, I'm going to keep thinking that Han Kyul has gay tendencies.

In all honesty, if a hot guy, for some reason, thinks I'm a guy and falls in love with me, God knows I aint dating him. WTF?


Nonetheless, I need the subs to come out so I can watch the showdown (ep 11 when someone spills the beans) and their make up in episode 12. Romantic shows generally end when the couple gets together so I'm not quite sure what's going to happen in the next 5 episodes. His family (or people he thinks are his family because apparently, they aren't his blood relatives) is very cool but I'm guessing some conflict will come from them not accepting her. Oh well, I guess I just have to wait and see.

I guess the storyline of his true parentage needs to be resolved but as I previously mentioned, I'm not that interested in it. I hope the show doesn't tank in the later episodes. From what I've seen so far, from my POV, this drama is absolutely overrated but that doesn't take away from its goodness. But big ups to the woman writer and woman director for creating a good show. More and more women need to get into the industry.

Buhahaha... Romanus the Bachelor

Just a short comedic skit... hahaha. Stupid funny but entertaining as well. No real point but whatever, it's only 6 minutes long. And you need to understand the Nigerian Igbo accent to get it.

Hmm...

... the kdrama world is all ablaze about Coffee Prince. I don't know. Should I watch it too? The subs are coming out at record speed. I think I'll take a stab at it. I don't know what's up with the whole cross dressing thing in 2007. First Taiwanese Hana Kimi created a sensation. Now it's Coffee Prince and Japanese Hana Kimi. Since the Taiwanese HK had a sucky ending, I might watch the last episode of the Japanese version to wipe the stain.

Loving another drama called 9 End 2 Outs about friends who become lovers (I'm guessing). That's right up my alley... too bad I can't watch it all now. Still on ep 3 and waiting for subs.

On other things... still writing Consequences. I'm on chapter 22... feeling better about the story. My writing it, the readership and all that. I'm at the point where I'm enjoying the story. I hope it stays that way.

Honeymoon... writing it but quite slowly. It's a 'side project' so I don't mind writing slowly. The sad part is I keep forgetting the characters' names. LOL For some reason, this has more readers than Consequences... still not many but for me, each reader makes a huge % of my readership. Lol... by soompi standards, I am practically a failure. I wonder why this doesn't bother me enough to just quit (although I'll be leaving after these stories are completed).

Aww... cute Igbo song

Mmiri Maram (Beaten by rain, I think)

So... *cough*

I guess I am writing ONE more story on Soompi...

My current story doesn't have that much drama and I want to write drama.

I am dropping one story so I am writing this one to make up for it.

It will be the first time I write two stories at the same time. I hope I make it!

I was just reading the Bronte bio...

... on wiki and saw this:

The book attracted little attention, selling only two copies, and they returned to prose, producing a novel each in the following year.

lol... I love that they weren't discouraged. Yay!

It looks like people have been downloading Ebute Meta...

Bute Meta Meta Meta...

So I'm maybe about a 1/4 or 1/3-way into my last soompi fic...

... I guess it's a nice feeling to be ending my one year run on the site. I anticipate finishing the story at the end of August. The storyline has been finalized and all that so it's all about getting it all out of my head.

Compared to others, it looks like I'm quite a fast writer. It generally takes me about 2 hours to write and edit a 2000-word chapter. The actual writing of the first draft usually takes less than 30 minutes. Is that fast?

I don't know the point of this post. I guess I'm feeling a bit weird about it all... I mentioned it in my thread and now I get to read comments that make me feel both happy and sad at the same time. Oh well, I'll just accept my fate as a boring writer and move on. And I think I might not finish one of the stories. On one hand, I do want to complete it for the readers who've been left hanging but on the other hand, I don't feel like dealing with the aggravation and insecurity of it all. Plus I'll have to reread it to remember what it's all about. LOL I think I'm pretty much done. We'll see at the end of August.

Writing on soompi did teach me a few things about writing - things I didn't learn from Femi's Diary or my O.C. stuff which is: just because you like what you write doesn't mean others do. lol It's a sad state of affairs... other stories get recommended along with mine, they acquire new readers but I don't :( :) I have to realize it's more with my stories lacking appeal than anything else.

I'm probably one of the least read writers on soompi (someone once referred to someone with my readership level as a failure. Ouch) but I've managed to write quite a bit since I started writing there... I probably wouldn't have spent as much of my time writing as I have in the past year if I didn't post there so I've definitely gained something from writing there.

It of course also made me question my ability to capture an audience and I guess I've decided that I'm just too boring. But it's okay... as long as I can entertain myself and the few people who enjoy my writing, I guess it's okay. I'm quite sure I'll fail miserably if I attempt to be 'interesting.'

Plus it seems that 'cutesy' fics are out (even though I still see many doing well) and 'dark, mature' fics are in. And since I won't be writing the latter, I guess I really have to find my way out. Oh well.... And that's my whine for today.

lol... it's quite funny how much I whine about this. I wonder what I'd be like if this was actually my day job... well, I'd probably be broke. lol

Umbrella - Naija Remix

Hahaha... so I only just blogged about Banky W a few days ago and now he's gone and done an Umbrella 'Remix' as sung by Rihanna. In regards to the original song, I always liked the beat but that was about it... Plus that woman's humongous forehead is just so damn distracting.

So anyhoo, I guess Banky W celebrates his Naija(Nigerian) roots in this song by talking about how he reps Naija regardless of where he is, be it Yankee(America) or Jand(England)... and other places 'near or far'. Then the bridge is pretty much saying we all rep Naija regardless of our places of origin (Kaduna, Anambra etc etc).

The song is cute and back in Naija I would have called it slightly razz with the whole Ebute Metta thing. It's also quite creative as there are some word plays e.g. You can cross rivers in Calabar... Calabar is the capital of Cross Rivers state. You can so rock down in Abuja... Aso Rock is located in Abuja.

The ending is kinda corny with the whole unity/wazobia thing but I guess every song should have a message.

But it's catchy and even though the lyrics are very simple and repetitive, it's still a fun rendition... and it's not like it's supposed to be taken seriously. I guess this is what happens when Banky is just playing (read: procrastinating) in the studio.

Here's the song: Ebute Metta

Follow me...

... why do I love the songs that aren't singles? I think I love Usher more than I realized. This is Follow Me from his Confession's album. This is just a clip of his performance on tour.

Can't believe I never posted this...

... in my blog. But it's all about Banky W. Some might know him from his underground hit, "My Regret," but I believe he's promoting his new song, "Capable." It's still R&B but it's got a Naija(Nigerian) flavor.

Capable This is a fanmade video, by the way.



My Regret Official video



Majekodumni is another song off his upcoming album. It also has a Naija flavor and the video is fanmade. Majekodunmi means "Don't hurt me" in Yoruba.

I need to write something...

... just anything! Something! Anything! Otherwise, I'll end up abandoning this story and I don't want to because the end is so damn cute! Too bad I'll have to write about 30 chapters to get there first. GRRRRRRRR

Plus, I'm way too distracted by Queen of the Game. The drama is pretty damn good and fast paced. Plus the male lead is too sexy for words. I want to have a 'conversation' with him. Yum.

Same girl... by R.Kelly and Usher

I don't know why there's so much hoopla about this song... not that special. And the video is even dumber.

Tell me where...

So I was just thinking of creating a soundtrack to go with the new story I am working on called, "The Consequences of You and Me."

Anyhoo, so I really wanted to add this song I absolutely adore but it just doesn't fit the storyline. Oh well...

It's called "Tell Me Where" off Tevin Campbell's "Back to the World" album and it's just awesome. I love Tevin.

Socha Na Tha

I love this song... and the movie of the same name but since youtube decided to delete my account, I've reuploaded it elsewhere and this time I've added subs. :)

Let's make love underneath a waterfall...

I don't know why I love these sexual songs... what's wrong with me? :D

But this is one of my fav songs off Joe's "My Name Is Joe" album.

It's called, 563 (Joe)

Although I constantly...

... have mixed feelings about posting on Soompi, I think that one great thing that has come out of it is discovering that I love writing YA fiction.

I've always loved High School movies and all that great stuff but when I think back to all I've written, even though I've pretty much liked all I've come up with, I think I've probably loved the YA stuff a tad more.

Or maybe not loved it more but found them easier to write? So I wonder if this is about laziness or about enjoying it more. I don't know.

But when I think of my multi-chap The O.C. fics, The Search for Seth Cohen was probably the most fun to write. And it was the only YA one.

When I think of the stories I wrote for NE, A Christmas At Home was the most fun to write.

And as per the Soompi stuff, I don't know... lol, they were all fun to write. So yeah, maybe YA is where it's at for me. So with this new self-discovery, hopefully, I'll find it in me to start working on my new story. I already anticipate having a lot of fun writing it, but the fun begins in the middle where the story really takes off. I guess I'm being a bit lazy about writing the intro.

That's probably what I miss most about writing fanfiction because with original fiction, you have to come up with a background and all that great stuff. I love to just jump in and write all the good stuff.

Bleh. I am so lazy.

Words

In the spirit of loving YA, I guess I'll post this The O.C. fanfic I wrote ages ago. I don't have it online anymore because I deleted my Livejournal.

Disclaimer: I don't own The O.C. or any of the characters in this piece.

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Date: Fri, 1 Oct 2004 16:18:39
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: KMD Therapy
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Hey,
Thanks for the advice. My aunt got an appointment for him next week. Good luck this weekend!

Anna.


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Date: Sun, 3 Oct 2004 11:36:18
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: KMD Therapy.
To: "Anna Stern"

You’re welcome. This guy on my soccer team swears it worked for his dad so let me know how it goes.

I thought the test went well. And about an hour into it, I thought of you. I bet you can’t guess what made me do that. Give up? Curmudgeon.

Ryan.

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Date: Mon, 4 Oct 2004 13:02:47
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Curmud-what?
To: "Ryan Atwood"


I don’t know which should offend me more. The fact you thought of me during a standardized test, or that the word curmudgeon made you think of me. Ryan, curmudgeon made you think of me? Explain. NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

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Date: Mon, 4 Oct 2004 21:42:09
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Anna Stern"


Haha. It’s nothing serious. It’s just that in one of your rants, you must have used it 20 times to describe your uncle. So now I guess I associate the word with you.

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Date: Wed, 6 Oct 2004 12:05:31 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Rants? Ryan, I don’t rant. I simply express myself. Just because a girl decides to express herself in something other than what society deems is feminine doesn't mean she’s ranting, it means that she’s simply expressing herself. Got that?

On another topic: Trevor isn’t taking no for answer. Help!


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Date: Wed, 6 Oct 2004 17:18:01
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Anna Stern"


Okay, okay, express yourself all you want... Even if I can practically see the smoke puffing out of your ears.

Help? I already told you that he sounds okay. Would it be so bad to hang out with him? But it’s really all up to you. Besides, I think he has great taste. :)

P.S.
Remember your little self-expression about biology? Well, I feel your pain – chemistry is kicking my butt.

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Date: Wed, 6 Oct 2004 18:59:39
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Ryan Atwood"


“Puffing out of your ears?” Ryan is that even English? What was your SAT score again? “Self-expression?” Cute, except it really isn’t. :) :P. So I’ve finally taken your advice and I’m going to the movies with Trevor on Friday. If it sucks, it’s all your fault.
I’m sorry to hear about Chemistry. How is Seth making out? Maybe he can help you.



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Date: Thu, 7 Oct 2004 13:23:33
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Anna Stern"

Who knows what Seth’s doing these days? If it’s not about Summer, I don’t hear about it. I got my chem midterm back today and I got a B. I guess it's not as bad as I thought. Cool about Friday. Is the Bio teacher any better?


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Date: Fri, 8 Oct 2004 11:08:10
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Ryan Atwood"


Nope. Mr Anderson sucks and so does Bio but most importantly, I don’t know what to wear to my date. But I guess you can’t be of much help. What are you doing this weekend?

P.S.
My uncle’s back still hurts like hell…


Anna.
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Date: Fri, 8 Oct 2004 12:00:17
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Anna Stern"


I just asked the dude about KMD and he says it sometimes takes a while. Or maybe your uncle should just do as the doctor suggested. Anyway, I’m just hanging out with Seth and some people – nothing special.

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Date: Fri, 8 Oct 2004 15:03:17
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Is ‘some people’ a girl?


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Date: Fri, 8 Oct 2004 19:57:23
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Curmud-what?
To: "Anna Stern"

Maybe. Talk to you later.


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Date: Sat, 9 Oct 2004 00:47:51
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: I suck
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Ryan, are you still with ‘some people?’ Because, I just got back from my date with Trevor and guess what? I slept through half of the movie. I feel so bad. If that happened to you, what would you do? I already agreed to a second date and I think I might end up marrying him just so he doesn’t think I slept on purpose or anything. I’m embarrassed and it’s your fault.


Anna.

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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:25:03
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: I suck
To: "Anna Stern"


Can a person “sleep on purpose?” And if a girl slept through half of the date, I’d probably not call her again. :)


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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:27:03
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Asshole!


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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:28:17
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Anna Stern"

That was quick. Where are you now? I’m in the school library.


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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:29:53
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Me too. And remember what I told you about MSN messenger? I’m sure it’s already downloaded on your school computer. Sign up now!


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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:35:18
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Anna Stern"

I signed up but it won’t let me log on. It’s saying something about ‘my passport.’ Anyway, I’m using Ryan.Atwood@hotmail.com


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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:38:16
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Gosh, could you be more boring? How about something more creative like chinoreject@hotmail.com? Why does it have to look all grown-up and responsible? Anyway, I’m sure you guessed that mine is pinkpainter@hotmail.com. I’ll add you now.


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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:40:34
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Anna Stern"

Chinoreject@hotmail.com? Anna, you’re really not as funny as you think. Besides, I didn’t know email addresses were supposed to be exciting. What does pinkpainter mean anyway? You don’t even want to know what I’m picturing right now.

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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:45:05
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Ryan Atwood"


I bet it’s something dirty. And don’t. Pinkpainter for many reasons:
1) I think the world would be a much better place if everyone could "think pink."
2) It’s kind of a play on Pink Panther. I love cartoons and I’m an artist so, PinkPainter.

Anyway, gatta go now – it’s time to learn about enzymes and other irrelevant things.

P.S.
I am too as funny as I think.



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Date: Tue, 12 Oct 2004 14:49:58
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Anna Stern"

You paint? I didn’t know that. Have a good class. Take care.


Ry.
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Date: Fri, 15 Oct 2004 22:29:18
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Ryan Atwood"

“Have a good class?” Ah… humor. I don’t really paint. I mean I paint sometimes, but I’m more of a free hand sketcher. But pinkdrawer just doesn’t have the same ring.

I’m bored, entertain me. Tell me something funny.


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Date: Sat, 16 Oct 2004 10:18:45
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Anna Stern"


You want me to entertain you? Damn, you must really be bored. And I’m sure I’d tell you something funny if Seth wasn’t standing behind me, waiting to use the computer to IM Summer all day long. Oh, did I neglect to tell you that at this very moment, he’s talking to her on the phone? So they are going to spend the rest of the day talking and IMing each other. It’s a little nuts.

P.S.
When do I get to see these drawings?

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Date: Sat, 16 Oct 2004 14:33:37
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck
To: "Ryan Atwood"


Hahaha… Seth has always been nuts. How’s Marissa?

P.S.
www.angelcities.com/pinkpainter/art


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Date: Sun, 17 Oct 2004 12: 21:01
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck .
To: "Anna Stern"


Whoa. Where did that come from?

P.S.
Your art is great. I really like the one with the old lady and the bottle.


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Date: Sun, 17 Oct 2004 14:28:29
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck .
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Nowhere. I guess I was just checking up on you.

P.S.
Thanks. :)


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Date: Sun, 17 Oct 2004 15:17:15
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck .
To: "Anna Stern"

How many times am I going to tell you that everything is cool? As you know, when I returned from Chino, she was already dating someone else and everything’s been cool since then. What about you, how are you doing?



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Date: Sun, 17 Oct 2004 15: 38:00
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: I suck .
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Fine. Gotta study. Talk to you later.


Anna.
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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 20:24:56
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Something funny
To: "Anna Stern"

Okay, something funny. So in soccer practice, this guy and I ran into each other. Although I think it’s more accurate to say he slammed into me. But instead of falling down, I barely moved, while he fell to the ground. It was almost like I was a brickwall or something. It was the weirdest thing.


Ry.
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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 20:53:16
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Something Funny
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Firstly, I should have visited bored.com before asking you to entertain me. But about the wall thing, what kind of iron have you been pumping? And how come you’re never on MSN?



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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 20:59:44
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Something Funny.
To: "Anna Stern"

About MSN, I keep forgetting to log on. I promise I will soon. How’s your uncle doing?




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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:03:15
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Something Funny.
To: "Ryan Atwood"

He’s doing much better and says he wants to kiss you. Seriously. Uhm, I don’t mean that he wants to seriously kiss you or anything, he’s just grateful.

On another note…
Don’t cry but Swifty is getting neutered this weekend.



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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:13:03
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Something Funny.
To: "Anna Stern"

Ouch. But what made you change your mind?


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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:18:55
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Something Funny
To: "Ryan Atwood"

He keeps humping every and anything. If he keeps this up, my aunt’s leg is going to have its own puppies. And you know what? I think it’s more humane this way. Swifty is so miserable.


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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:20:43
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Something Funny
To: "Anna Stern"

I’m sorry to hear that. If you want to talk…


Ry.
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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:21:21
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Something Funny
To: "Ryan Atwood"

I’m fine. It’s not like I’m the one getting spayed. Speaking of which, do you have my number?


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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:23:09
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Something Funny
To: "Anna Stern"

No I don’t, but I’m sure I can get it from Seth. Is there a best time to call?

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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:25:53
From: "Anna Stern"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Something Funny
To: "Ryan Atwood"

Don’t be silly. Why get it from Seth when you can get it from me?
My private room #: 412 232 9032
My cell # : 412 877 9039

Don’t give my cell # to Seth. He tends to disregard the time difference so after a certain time I turn my ringer off. I knew better than to give him my cell phone # when I finally changed it. And you can call me anytime.


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Date: Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:27:30
From: "Ryan Atwood"
Subject: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Something Funny
To: "Anna Stern"

Cool. I’m calling you right now.

I love Google docs!

Really, I do!

I was looking to .pdf the fics I'd completed on soompi because I really don't like the idea of Word documents floating around because they can be easily manipulated. Anyhoo, I don't have Adobe distiller but you can just upload your documents onto google docs and save as PDF. I LOVE THAT!

Yay! I believe they are working on a powerpoint type program as well. Google really wants to kick Microsoft's ass, doesn't it? lol.

So Amazing...

... RIP Luther Vandross.

Can someone, somewhere...

... make me write? Lol... I posted my prologue to inspire me to start writing but it aint happening. Hopefully tomorrow *fingers crossed*

I shouldn't have taken a break for like 3 weeks - it's so not good for me. But the good thing is I've finally worked the plot out... well, the beginning and the end. And the middle, I guess, although I haven't yet written them down (on my outline).

lol... so I'm totally going to start a new story...

... I'll probably start writing tomorrow. It'll be a coming-of-age kind of story. YA romance/drama, not really comedic though. I'm pretty excited :D

Hmm... so after having a pity party last night...

... this morning, I went into work and a coworker told me that her husband is a published writer and if I'm interested, I should hook up with him and learn a bit about publishing. Hmm... I think I'll take her up on her offer. I don't know about the long pieces but I wouldn't mind showing him some of the shorter things (after a little tweaking).

Then WFF received two comments today. Not much to some people but a lot to me :D LOL... I guess some people are still reading. So I guess it's not yet time to quit writing. hahaha.

I'm about to go to bed...

... and I really feel like saying sayonara to writing. All I've spent my day doing is examining why the hell I bother to write. Why I waste all that time and energy doing this. What's the pay off? And why do I suck? :( Jeez. I think it's time for me to just quit. I think I'll feel better...

It's funny how I've been writing for a while but have never been as discouraged as I've been this past year. *sigh* I should have just stopped at writing my The O.C. fanfic and the few things I did for NE. At worst, I should have stopped at Finding A Bridge. Wrong Foot First was a huge ass mistake. I never should have written it. I wish I could take it back and delete it from existence but I'm trying not to be my usual self by doing something drastic. I'll try to sleep on it for a week. If I don't feel better, it's chop, chop, chop time!

ARGH!

I feel like starting a new story now and I've already written my outline and worked out the kinks. I guess I'm really just discouraged now. Maybe because I'm not looking forward to all that writing and also to spending all that time writing then seeing it tank and sink after I've finished it. :( Plus for some reason, I feel like there's something really unappealing about my writing. blech.

Maybe I should spend this 'funk' taking a serious look at publishing. A 'life coach' came to work and spoke to us about time management and I guess from her talk, I feel I really need to get off my butt and try to make things happen.

Hopefully the planets will align and something good will happen. *crosses fingers*

EDIT:
I just re-read what I wrote. I think my writing is unappealing but I want to go ahead and look into publishing? WTF? I need my head examined... lol, I think it's just the funk talking. I'll be better in a week or two... I hope. Or maybe I'll finally get my head out of the sand and be realistic about my ability. lol. Whatever, men.